I need to just admit

my faith is paper thin
I'm feeling so burned out
On religion

I say an empty prayer
I sing a tired song
I need to just admit that the passion's gone

And I want to get it back
You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You
I want to learn to pray
The way that David prayed
I want my soul to burn when I hear Your name
I want to feel like new
I want to hunger for you
Bring me back to life like only You can do
Cause I don't want to stay the same
You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You
Lord, I want to be Yours today
I want to know the passion of the saints
And how they were changed
You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
I want to burn for You
Bring me back to life, Jesus
Help me rediscover You.

Nashville!

I'm in Nashville!

We are here because my sister and her friend are auditioning for American Idol :-). My dad, sister Briana, her friend Nick, and my dad's friend Betty arrived at 4:30am on Thursday morning. After the longest& most exhausting drive of my life- I slept most of the day Thursday, did some swimming, and then we all went out at night for dinner and live music. First we saw a blue-grass band at a restaurant called Caney Fork. There were a few American Idol contestants that sat in with the band, Briana shortly followed suit...Along with Nick who was dragged up there by a hilarious old woman that we had just met. From there we all headed to the Wild Horse Saloon which was PACKED. It's a huge 3 story restaurant/bar with live music and a huge dance floor. Instead of waiting 2 hours to get sat and eat dinner, we sat by the bar and had appetizers. Briana, Nick and I then got on the dance floor and learned a line dance called Money Bags. That was honestly probably the most fun I've had on the trip this far, hahaha. It was followed by the Hustle, and then ended with Cotton Eyed Joe, loved every second of it...Even the buckets of sweat dripping from every inch on my body ;D. The band was really good there, but we left shortly after the dance to go check out other music scenes. Before leaving I bought a cute cowboy shoe magnet for my dorm's fridge. :D The last place we headed to was called BB Kings Blues Club. I know, the name already makes it sound incredibly, right? IT WAS MY FAVORITE PLACE EVER! We didn't eat there, only ordered a few drinks but the music was unfathomable. Being there really showed me that even though I might not be a great singer, or great at a musical instrument like the rest of my family is...I still have the same heart for music as they do. I was blown away at how much I loved all of the blues music! They played things like the Temptations and Rick James, and their guitar solos were insane. I bought a t-shirt there and a guitar pick that has BB Kings signature on it :D. After that musical blessing, we drove...well actually I had to drive...back to the hotel after getting a gross dinner at McDonalds. Fell asleep quickly after and here we land today! Briana, Dad, Nick and I just got home from the Cracker Barrel. I personally hate their food always, but the store is super exciting, and always has been to me! I'm not sure what we are doing for the rest of the night but I will probably be writing out thank you cards and starting my Psychology homework...Not the most exciting thing to do on a vacation but hey, I have responsibilities, unfortunately. Well...I'm off!

There are so many kids out there they are dying to have a glimpse of what I have. I can't count on all of my fingers and toes the amount of people that have genuine love for me. Some of the students I have, have nobody to love them. I waste my time and emotional energy on loving people that don't accept my love. I want to love all of the people who don't have love, that don't know what love is. I want the love that people give me to go straight from me and flow into the people I encounter every day. I want the love of God to overflow in my heart so I can pour so much love on the ones that deeply need it. Having this mentoring job is the most heart wrenching job I could imagine. It breaks me to see these kids that just don't know what it means to have somebody want whats best for them, or to have somebody genuinely love and care about them. Somebody wrote me a note today saying, "Why am I here? Why should any of this matter?" The paper is also filled with sadistic symbols and planes dropping bombs. Our first reactions to things like this is to laugh. That was my first reaction. It's not funny, it is heart breaking.

I will love you for you.

Not for what you have done or

what you will become. i will love you for you,

i will give you the love, the love that you never knew.

Welcome!

Hello friends. Yes, I think this is in fact my 1,000th blog. But that's alright, because I have a good feeling about this one! I think he's a keeper... Especially since I have a very new, very functioning laptop rather than a sluggish, 100-year-old, dusty, hunkin' mess.

I want to start recording my last summer before college, I think I would love to look back on this in years to come. Eh? I can't believe I actually move out in such a short amount of time. I'm pretty afraid, but probably more so excited. This is just a welcoming post, a short hello. I'll start actually posting either later today or later this weekend. Cya! :-)